#28

28 Days to go...

4 Weeks left!!

Morning, Little One!

Whew! I am tired.

Last night we went to Andrea and Scott's wedding. It was a great night but we had a very busy day.

I don't know what it was - but it could have been the fact that I didn't have a lot of water and I was on the go all day - but I was not feeling well last night.

I had a bit of stomach ache after dinner and tried to ignore it. Then, I started to feel something different. I have had contractions on and off for about a week and they have been pretty mild. But, last night, they were much stronger, got stronger as I would walk and were coming pretty regularly.

Now, they weren't coming so close together that I had to be concerned that you were getting ready to join us. I just put my feet up, did some dancing in my chair with Allie and Stacy, people watched, and timed the contractions as they came.

I had the chance to talk to Ashley. She's another wife of one of Craig's high school buddies. She just had her twin babies and already has a 2 year old son. So, we chatted about motherhood, pediatricians, and about labor.

She asked me a question that no one has asked me. She asked "Are you nervous?"

I asked if I was nervous about being a Mommy, but because she is a faithful blog reader, she already knows how terrified I am about being a Mommy.

What she wanted to know was if I was nervous about going into labor and giving birth.

Here are a few things I DO know:

1 - I'm not going to be a hero and try to do this naturally. I know my limits and these "mini contractions" are hard for me to handle. I believe that many medical interventions are safe - including medicated births (like epidurals) - and know that it will be safe for you.

2 - I am also going to trust my doctor. I have to. I can't dictate what's best for you when I am so emotionally tied to you already. He knows you and knows me and will do what is best for the both of us. So, if he says c-section...then surgery it is.

3 - I am a little nervous that I won't know when it's time. I know this one sounds silly - but if my water doesn't break and my contractions are regular and closer together - will I KNOW it's time for you to join us? I've gone to the doctor thinking it was "time" and it wasn't. But, from the advice of many of my friends - I'll know it's time because the contractions will hurt like he!!.

4 - The thought of all the pain freaks me out. The thought of you coming out where you're supposed to come out - freaks me out. The thought of meeting you - makes it all worth it.

5 - I can plan and plan and plan - and write up a birth plan but ultimately - my birth plan is:

GET THE BABY OUT!!

Labor = work
Work = giving birth
Giving birth = meeting you
Meeting you = best moment ever

Since I am a mathematical genius....

Labor = giving birth = best moment ever

So - I'm nervous, yes. But, then again...if I wasn't worried about something...then I guess I wouldn't be me!

Keep on growing Sweet Girl...