#28

28 Days to go...

4 Weeks left!!

Morning, Little One!

Whew! I am tired.

Last night we went to Andrea and Scott's wedding. It was a great night but we had a very busy day.

I don't know what it was - but it could have been the fact that I didn't have a lot of water and I was on the go all day - but I was not feeling well last night.

I had a bit of stomach ache after dinner and tried to ignore it. Then, I started to feel something different. I have had contractions on and off for about a week and they have been pretty mild. But, last night, they were much stronger, got stronger as I would walk and were coming pretty regularly.

Now, they weren't coming so close together that I had to be concerned that you were getting ready to join us. I just put my feet up, did some dancing in my chair with Allie and Stacy, people watched, and timed the contractions as they came.

I had the chance to talk to Ashley. She's another wife of one of Craig's high school buddies. She just had her twin babies and already has a 2 year old son. So, we chatted about motherhood, pediatricians, and about labor.

She asked me a question that no one has asked me. She asked "Are you nervous?"

I asked if I was nervous about being a Mommy, but because she is a faithful blog reader, she already knows how terrified I am about being a Mommy.

What she wanted to know was if I was nervous about going into labor and giving birth.

Here are a few things I DO know:

1 - I'm not going to be a hero and try to do this naturally. I know my limits and these "mini contractions" are hard for me to handle. I believe that many medical interventions are safe - including medicated births (like epidurals) - and know that it will be safe for you.

2 - I am also going to trust my doctor. I have to. I can't dictate what's best for you when I am so emotionally tied to you already. He knows you and knows me and will do what is best for the both of us. So, if he says c-section...then surgery it is.

3 - I am a little nervous that I won't know when it's time. I know this one sounds silly - but if my water doesn't break and my contractions are regular and closer together - will I KNOW it's time for you to join us? I've gone to the doctor thinking it was "time" and it wasn't. But, from the advice of many of my friends - I'll know it's time because the contractions will hurt like he!!.

4 - The thought of all the pain freaks me out. The thought of you coming out where you're supposed to come out - freaks me out. The thought of meeting you - makes it all worth it.

5 - I can plan and plan and plan - and write up a birth plan but ultimately - my birth plan is:

GET THE BABY OUT!!

Labor = work
Work = giving birth
Giving birth = meeting you
Meeting you = best moment ever

Since I am a mathematical genius....

Labor = giving birth = best moment ever

So - I'm nervous, yes. But, then again...if I wasn't worried about something...then I guess I wouldn't be me!

Keep on growing Sweet Girl...

#29

29 Days to go....

In the 20s....

Morning, Sweet Girl!

Last night we went to a rehearsal dinner for one of Daddy's best friends. Scott and Andrea are getting married today and Daddy is in the wedding.

It was a fun night and I ate about 4 lbs worth of Mexican food at the rehearsal dinner.

I love watching Daddy interact with his buddies - they've been friends for years - some as long as elementary school. I'm also pretty blessed because I have become such good friends with all of their wives - so in total - it's a win/win for both of us!

At the dinner- Andrea and Scott thanked everyone for coming. And in true bride to be fashion - Andrea cried as she thanked all the special people in her life.

As she was speaking, I got all emotional again. I mean - COME ON! It wasn't even my wedding...

I listened to her thank her Mom and I just pictured you - many, many, MANY years down the road - on your wedding day. When some very lucky man is going to capture your heart and join our family. I looked at Daddy and said - "We're going to have a daughter soon. And then we'll have to give her away."

And as usual, Daddy just looked at me...shook his head and sighed.

Then, Andrea thanked her Dad. And through tears she said "I just want to thank you for all the sacrifices you've made for me and this family."

Her Dad replied, "It's not sacrifice when it's done out of love."

OH BOY - I lost it. I looked at Daddy again and said " That's gonna be you, you're going to have a daughter, and you're going to have to give her away on her wedding day." He just pats me on the back, nods and says "I know"....but he was teasing me.

I know I'm going to blink and you're going to be all grown up. I know you're not even here yet - but even the time we've spent together as I've carried you in my belly - has gone by so fast.

We love you, Iz. And we will cherish every second we get with you.

For now, Little One, keep on growing!

#30 - From Daisy

30 Days to go...

Hi, Izzy...

It's your big dog sister - or as Mommy and Daddy call me - their "dog daughter."

I don't know what the big deal is...I mean - I guess it's neat that you won't be furry but I am the Princess of the house now.

But, I'm willing to share my title with you. I keep hearing Mommy and Daddy talk about how you'll give me and our big brother Keiser Cheerios when you get bigger...that makes me so excited.

Here's a few tips for when you join us:

1. Mommy is tough. She really doesn't budge when it comes to rules....except for Keiser. I get WHATEVER I want from Daddy. He's a big pushover - all you have to do is look at him with your big brown eyes like me...and he's putty in your paws.

2. Mommy is the best singer ever! If you see her sit on the ground and nuzzle up right next to her - she'll sing you a song. She sings some silly ones to me and Keiser - but my favorites are when she sings me lullabies and I go right to sleep.

3. If it rains really hard and it starts to thunder and lightening - do what I do - and just whine and whimper. Then, Mommy will come out and rub your head like she does mine until the storm passes.

4. The weekends are when Mommy and Daddy sleep in. But, if you whine long enough - they'll eventually get up with you - even if it isn't even 8am!

5. Don't fight it if Mommy puts crazy clothes on you. I guess she thinks since I'm a girl - I like to wear bows and clothes. The bandanas I don't mind. But, just let her dress you and wait til Daddy gets home - then he'll take off the silly things you don't want to wear.

We have a pretty good gig here. We get lots of love from our pet parents. You already have a room ready which I really like to lay down in. They are so excited to meet you and talk about you all the time. I am pretty excited too - I guess...I don't like sharing the title of Princess or Daddy's Little Girl...but for you - I'm willing to :-)

Ok - non furbaby sister - Keep on growing!

#31

31 Days to go...

Morning, Little One!

You know who loves you? Ok - don't guess me...who else do you think?

Who talks to you every night?

Who lays their hand on my belly and tries to get you to kick?

Who worked so hard on your room by painting the walls, assembling furniture, and moving and re-moving that furniture until it looked right?

DADDY - that's who!!

You know what, Sweet Girl. We are going to need to be patient with him. You'll learn that I am a perfectionist and have a tendency to be really hard on myself and then expect everyone around me to meet those expectations. Well - it's good and bad. It's good because I don't settle for things getting half-way done, I put try my hardest to put in 100% in everything I do (projects, relationships, friendships), etc.

Being a Dad is going to be a whole new experience for your Daddy. He is THE most loving, patient, kind, hardworking man I know. He loves me and loves you so much already.

He's a big dude - so he worries about you being so small. He doesn't want to do anything wrong and accidentally hurt you. But, I remind him that babies are much more "sturdy" than we realize and I know he'll be gentle with you.

This weekend - he practiced being a Daddy.

He installed the car seat bases in the cars. Now, even though we still have to get our cars detailed and cleaned - he just wanted to practice. Then, after he installed the bases - he practiced putting the car seat in and out of the car. It took him a little longer to figure out how to snap the car seat in the base - but you know what - he did it! We're going to work on putting a baby doll in and strapping it in the seat so he gets practice using all those dang straps.

I told him we'll have lots of practice when you're actually here - but he was pretty insistent on practicing and continued to say "She's just going to be so little and I don't want to do it wrong."

Daddy loves you. And watching him become a father makes me love him in a whole new way. We are still in awe at the miracle that you are. I love that you'll be part of him and part of me. I hope you know how incredibly blessed we are to have the man in our life be as amazing as your Daddy.

We love you, Izzy! For now, keep growing!!

Hmm...ok - let's do this!

Ok - I have no clue....

YESSSSS....GREAT SUCCESS!!

#32

32 Days to go...

Morning, Little One!

How exciting - your room is done and we're just waiting for you!

Daddy and I used our anniversary gift and made a tour of your room for the world to see.

I hope you love it as much as we loved putting it together.

For now, Sweet Girl, keep on growing!

***After watching the video, I realized I was breathing really heavily. Sorry....it takes a lot of effort these days to waddle from one room to another - ENJOY!**

#33

33 Days to go...

Hi, Little One!

We had our weekly doctor's appointment today.

You sounded great - well - your heart beat did :-)

You've already made your way "down" and are starting to get ready to come see us. As Daddy said today "you're on deck!"

But, we need to do our best to keep you in Mommy's belly for at least 2 weeks - ideally - until I hit 38 weeks.

The doctor said my body is starting to get ready for your arrival too. In medical mumbo-jumbo - I'm 50% effaced, your head is down (not sure what station - and I'm not sure if you'll stay that way), and I'm still "a bit closed" but about a "finger tip" dilated.

At our hospital visit on Friday - I wasn't dilated at all...so I guess my body is doing it's best to get ready for your "birthday!" But, if I could just keep you in for a few more weeks it'll be what's best for you.

So - we wait - Sweet Girl. Just like everything else in life...it's on God's time. So, He'll decide when you're ready to join us. Keep on growing and I'll see you very, very soon!

#34

34 Days to go...

Hi, Little One!

Do you know what today is? Today is a very special day.

Today is Memorial Day.

You are so blessed and so privileged to be born in a country where people before you and even before me fought for our freedom.

To this day, people are still fighting for us to ensure that our country is safe from any threats that enemies pose to us.

You'll be able to express your opinions, likes and dislikes, speak for or against important issues - and won't be persecuted for it.

This is special day where we get to pay tribute to the men and women who are fighting, have fought, and will fight for you and me.

So remember this day and remember to say thank you for the sacrifices so many have made for you.

We are so blessed, Sweet Girl, to live in the United States.

I love you, Baby Girl! Keep on growing!

#35

35 Days to go...

Today is our 35 week landmark with 35 days left to go!

Officially - 5 weeks left...

Today, Little One, we visited one of my best friends in the hospital. Ashley is Mommy to be to Baby Coleman. He's already ready to come out and play but he needs to stay put for at least 3-5 more weeks.

Ashley is handling all of this like a champ. I don't know how I would be able to handle it. I would go crazy. She isn't able to get up out of bed. She is bound to that hospital bed until hopefully Tuesday and then she may be released on strict bed rest.

So, we have some important things to do. We have to pray extra hard for Ashley, Baby C. and for Clay (Daddy to be). We want their Sweet Boy to keep on growing so they avoid any more complications with having a pre-term baby.

She loves her Little One just as much as I love you and I know that she is only able to do this - sit and wait - because she knows it's what's best for Baby C.

You see, Sweet Girl, that's what Mommies do. We do whatever it takes to make sure our Little Ones are safe, happy and healthy.

So, for now, you keep growing Little One...and send out baby vibes to Baby Coleman and remind him to STAY PUT!!!

#36

36 Days to go...

Morning, Little One!

Daddy is on a mini-day trip to watch the Rangers play. He's going with your Uncle Scott and Abuelo.

I am going to get a massage, do some shopping, and then - as promised to Daddy - relax the rest of the day.

Relaxing to me means that I'll probably do a little bit of baking, order a chick-flick on T.V. and get sushi for dinner....what a great night!

Before Daddy left, we opened up your car seat and tried to figure it out. We want to make sure we know how to work it before we have to put you in it :-)

It's the "final" piece of necessities we need for you before you get here. You're crib is ready, we have diapers and baby wipes, onesies, a monitor, bottles, pacifiers, blankets...now we're officially ready for you.

But, like the doctor said yesterday, he wants you to stay put for at least 3 more weeks. I'd like you to wait it out for 36 more days so you're absolutely done cooking, but we'll just go day to do day to make sure my old 29 year old body can make it to 38 weeks.

Since I had another scare yesterday and had to go to the hospital, Daddy and I are really and truly ready for you to be here. Yes - we understand how challenging it's going to be when you are an outside baby - but the fact that there is so much going on with you when you're inside my body - we'd feel better knowing we can see you and hold you.

Now that your room is done, we have the "big" things needed for you, and that I've come to terms with the fact that I can no longer do it all - I'm going to take it easy the rest of the time until you get here.

It's still so surreal that you're going to be joining our little family. But, we are excited to finally meet you.

For now, Sweet Girl, keep on growing'!

#37

37 days to go....or sooner

Hi Little One.

I love you Sweet Girl. I really, really, really do.

I don't know how to describe what I feel when I think about meeting you. You've already captured my heart in a way I never thought possible.

We celebrated you again with friends from our church. I am so amazed at how giving these women for only knowing me for a couple of months. You received gifts from women I had never even met. They celebrated you along with another Baby Girl that is coming a couple months after you.

Baby McAbee will be here August 26th. Her Mommy and Daddy are leaders of our Home Team. This Home Team has welcomed Daddy and I into their group with open arms and open hearts. They made us feel right at home and I can already tell from the short time we've been with this group - that they'll be friends to us for a lifetime.

Daddy and I prayed for a Home Team so that we'd have a group of people that would hold us accountable for our walk with Christ. We found that group - and feel so thankful that we can laugh, love, cry, and worship with them.

Friends come in all sorts of places. These friends came to us because God knew we needed them.

We shared a great night last night celebrating you and Baby McAbee with great food, lots of stories, and tons of laughter!

What a great night with great friends!

Sweet Baby, keep on growing!

#38

38 Days to go...

Morning, Little One.

One of the things I love to do is write. I love to write stories, loved to write reports when I had to in school, and I especially love to write poems.

I love that I can get creative and use my brain in a different and creative way.

So, Sweet Girl...let Mommy show you a different side of who I am.

I call this one:

"Missing you.."

I longingly think of you and don't know where to start.
It's painful to think of all the time we've been apart.

I catch myself stealing glances and allow the sadness to come.
I know for a moment - you were the One.

I have to stop memories or my thoughts will be full of danger.
Because what I have now - it's not you - a total stranger.

I can't allow myself to dwell - my husband - he'll end up in rage.
Because he knows I can't go back - my life right now is not in that stage.

I laugh when I think about the times we shared.
How you hugged my body closely - times you let me down - were rare.

You made me feel sexy, playful, and like a woman.
At times you gave me confidence - and made me believe "I can."

We'll be together again - our times will be once more.
When I can be proud of me as I walk out the front door.

Oh - pre- pregnancy wardrobe - how I miss you so much.
I know you don't understand for how these 8 months - you've not been given a touch.

My body has changed from a size 2 to a size...much more robust.
I have a plan to come back to you - THIS is a must.

My my feet are longing for the high heels that made me taller.
My body can't wait to be at least 4 sizes smaller.

My cute little skirts, pants, and shirts that gave me class.
Man those tight, little jeans - gave me a good...behind...

But this Sweet Baby girl is thankful for the Mumu's I don.
She's able to move, breathe, with the elastic I have on.

So for now - we'll be apart - but give me til December.
After 7 months of they gym - I'll once again remember...

How it feels to wear clothes without high waist bands.
And to wear T-shirts that fit - not borrowed from my Man.

We'll be together again - a promise I make to myself.
It will be a great day - pre pregnancy wardrobe - when I take you back off the shelf!

Sweet Girl, I hope you liked seeing this different side of your Momma! I love you so much! Keep on growing!

#39

39 days to go...

Morning, Little One!

In the 30's now...holy moly...

A great memory I have growing up is something only my mom (your Nana) and I did. She would work late nights at the ER and would come home around 10:30PM. By that time, I would already be asleep. But, I would wake up and sit with her in the living room and watch T.V. until I fell back asleep. The show we watched...was "Love Connection."



I remember sitting with her as she watched the show and still remember this moment just the two of us would share.

I hope to have small moments like that with you.

It may not be "Love Connection..." but maybe you and I will debate the validity of "The Bachelorette" and if you really can find love on T.V.

Maybe we'll have mornings where we'll have breakfast in bed and watch cartoons..."Alvin and the Chipmunks", "Scooby Doo," "The Smurfs..." only the classics.


The only thing I'm sure of is that I want to start special traditions only you and I will share. I also want you to have a special something you do with Daddy.

I love you, Sweet Girl! We have a lot of time to decide what kind of girl time we'll have together...for now...keep on growing!

#40

40 Days to go...

Morning, Little One.

We have errands to run today. You need a car seat. You need a baby monitor. You need....

I could go on and on and on. But, I never realized how much you need before you get here.

Since, we'll be 35 weeks next week and I'm already having contractions - you could be here much sooner than I think.

But, I'm going exercise my Mom voice and sternly say "Stay in until at least 38 weeks!!" You need to bake a little longer.

I don't know how people just have babies. With no prep, no fuss, no muss...no problem!
No worries about getting things for their Little Ones, no worries about making sure nurseries are ready, just no worries.

I feel like Daddy and I are mentally, physically, financially, and emotionally getting ready for you to join our family. But, I know we'll never be ready. We'll never feel like our your room is perfect enough, we have enough savings, that we're ready to be selfless with our time, that we have all that you "need..."

But, no matter how unprepared we'll feel - I really don't think Daddy and I are prepared for the wonderful changes you are going to bring to our family. I'm not sure we're ready to hear that amazing first cry, see your little eyes look up at us, have your little hands grasp our fingers, see your first smile, hear your first giggle...all these things. I'm not sure we're truly ready to experience the absolute JOY you are going to bring us. I'm not sure - at this moment - that I could love you more than I do now...but I am sure that I will. I'm sure we'll love you in a capacity we never thought imaginable.

For now, Sweet Baby...just keep on growing!

#41

41 Days to go...

Morning, Little One!

I.am. nesting.

Seriously nesting.

I don't know if it was the fact that I had another baby shower this weekend and I got more clothes and more things for your room or the fact that you can come into this world within the next couple of weeks - but I am on overdrive.

I can't get the kitchen clean enough. We had a cleaning lady come by last week to scrub the shower stalls, clean the bathroom, and mop but I don't know if I'll be using her again.
She did a GREAT job - how could you not when you spend 45 minutes cleaning the shower but I realized she doesn't clean how I think things should be cleaned. That kind of clean is OCD kind of clean....ridiculous.

But, she has to come because it is getting harder and harder for me to maneuver my body to mop and scrub like I used to. I'll get over it...hopefully.

Your room is so close to being done and I plan on finishing the little "accents" today and putting them up tomorrow.

I do realize that your room doesn't have to be done since I am staying at home when you get here. But, I think I'll be really tired from the night time feedings that I'll have to use my spare time to catch up on sleep or do the normal household duties.

Daddy bought me a deep freezer this weekend. I LOVE IT! I love that I can bake and make meals and freeze them so Daddy and I will have yummy meals to eat when we're camping out at the house. I love organizing the food by date and type of food, making lists of the things that are in the freezer, putting directions together for Daddy so he knows how to heat the food, and then making a schedule of when the food needs to be eaten.

I love cleaning out the pantry and organizing the food according to canned, baking goods, snacks, etc.

I love making labels for the little storage bins so Daddy knows where to get your onesies, sleepers, socks, mittens, blankets, washcloths, etc.

We're going to have a productive day because I need to have a productive day to get all the stuff that needs to be done - DONE.

For now, Sweet Girl, keep on growing!

#42

42 Days to go....6 weeks left!!!

Hi, Baby Girl!

I really love the fact that our family is back together.

Your dog brother, Keiser, came back to us on Friday. We were able to pick him up at the vet hospital on Friday. He was eager and so excited to see us.

Daddy and Keiser in your room

His battle wounds aka shaved paws where his I.V. was :-(

My sweet Keiser boy

Keiser is 8 years old. In dog years - that's about 56-60 years old. So, he's an older dog and it hit Daddy and I really hard that we could have lost our sweet boy. But, it made us realize how short our time is with Keiser and even Daisy. As hard as the few days were when he was in the hospital, it made me realize that loving someone (or in this case some pup) is absolutely unconditional. Yes, dogs are dogs and they are just animals. They don't tell us they love us even though they can show excitement and some affection. They don't tell us thank you for caring for them, feeding them, and loving them. They rely on us for everything. Essentially, we're all that they have.

Ok - now this is a stretch. But, in a way having these dogs has prepared Daddy and I for you. Of course we can't throw at a treat at you and block you off in the living room while we run out for a few hours. But, it has shown us that we are capable of loving and caring for someone without getting any kind of reassurance, feedback, or rewards.

When you're just an itty bitty baby - fresh out of the womb - you'll rely on Daddy and I for everything. You'll need us to feed you, care for you, love you - and you won't be able to really communicate with us your needs and acknowledge the work that we're doing to care for you.
We will be giving our all - and loving every moment of it - because we already love you unconditionally.

I am getting nervous and excited about when you get here. It'll be here so soon!

For now, keep growing Sweet Girl!

#43

43 Days to go....

Hi, Little One!

How much fun was today! Did you just love all those people celebrating you...again?!?

I did!

It's us Baby Girl!

I feel so incredibly blessed to have been surrounded by family and friends who love you so much.

We celebrated you today by honoring a rite of passage all little girls must go through...that my Sweet Girl...is a tea party!

Your Tita's and Nana threw us a tea party shower. I don't know if it's me but it seems like my showers actually bring on "real" showers. It was another nasty, rainy day - but our family and my best friends drove all the way to celebrate you.

Pretty table

Party favors - it's tea! And it said "Baby Hounsel is Tea-rrific!"

We sat around, talked, laughed, opened gifts, laughed some more, ate some more - and just really loved being together.

Yummy cake

Your future boyfriends - Caden Burrows and his mommy Christi and Baby Coleman and his mommy Ashley were there. We talked about baby stuff in only the way real friends do...as bluntly and honestly as possible. We talked about how our bodies are changing - ahem- and certain parts are changing too.

Christi (and Baby Caden) and Me and you

Your best friend Charleigh and her Momma (my best friend!) - Stacy were there. As usual, Charleigh was the hit of the party. I can't wait until you get to meet her. Ya'll will be great friends.

Your Nana, Wawa, Titas, cousins came to celebrate you too.

Sofia and Maddie

Family in their pretty hats
Tita Chonnie

Tita Candice and Tita Jill

You are so loved, Little One. I love you're coming into this world with so much love and support.

For now, keep on growing!

#44

44 Days to go...

Hi, Little One!

Busy, busy, busy day we had!

We have a busy few weeks ahead of us so I'm trying my best to get most things accomplished before you get here.

Today we went to Sam's and your Tatay bought you some diapers and baby wipes. He bought me some sandals and fruit. He loves to spoil his Buleles.

Then, we headed over to Target to return some things and finished our baby shower shopping at Baby's R Us for all the parties we'll be going to in the next few weeks.

I had to get some last minute accessories for another baby party for you, tomorrow, with our family and some of my best friends.

We went to JoAnn's and bought craft supplies for all the fun things I'm making for your room.

I remember when I could do all of this and not even break a sweat. But, now that I'm 8 months pregnant - it really takes a toll on me. It doesn't help that I'm still having Braxton Hicks and real contractions mixed in with my errand running!

I know that all this running around will be no more or at least slow down tremendously when you get here. I would like to get out of the house with you once you're a little bigger - but we'll be in the hottest months of the year in Dallas...so expect lots of lazy days at home or at your Tatay and Nana's house.

This is something I'm going to have to get used to....the not being able to just pick up and go on a whim. I know that it'll be much harder once you get here. I'll have a car seat, stroller, diaper bag, and...YOU to bring around. But, that's ok - I'm totally fine with not meandering through the aisles at Super Target - it'll save us lots of money!

We'll be best buds and two peas in a pod....and then when Daddy gets home...you and him will hang out while I get some time for moi :-)

For now, Sweet Baby, keep on growing!!

#45

45 Days to go...

Hi, Little One...

Sorry it's so late. But don't worry, I didnt' forget about you.

It's been a tough 24 hours for your Daddy, me and Daisy. Your dog brother, Keiser, is much sicker than we thought. He has been at the hospital since yesterday afternoon and he'll be there until tomorrow. We are praying he can be released to us tomorrow.

Turns out Keiser may have liver disease. Luckily, the vet thinks we caught it in its acute stages so we can adjust his diet to make sure he stays healthy for us for a few more years.

Of course, I've been researching natural diets for him and plan on making his food from here on out. This is what happens when you have kids, I think. You do whatever it takes to get them healthy and keep them healthy and happy.

Daddy took the day off today to be with me since I was kind of a wreck after we heard the news yesterday. Daddy wasn't doing so well either. Some people think we're crazy and think "it's just a dog!!"

But you'll soon see, that pets become part of a family and our two dogs mean the world to us.

Keiser got very excited when we visited him. He looked sad and pathetic in his cage with his I.V. line in and cone around his head. He barked, howled, and pawed at us! All good signs that he's getting better.

He was very excited to hear that you are doing great! We had our visit to our regular doctor today. The doctor thinks you're doing spectacular and feels very good about treating us as "normal" patients and no longer "high risk" since my blood pressure has been great.

I've been having contractions (you probably think it's my ute giving you a hug) daily - about 10-15 a day. The doctor said it was normal and to only be concerned if I get 10 and hour.

Since you'll be 34 weeks on Sunday - technically - 35 weeks is when the doctor will let you come and be an outside baby if you decide that's when you're ready to see us.

But, I am going to order you to stay in my ute for at least 3-4 more weeks. You need time to develop and allow your lungs to fully mature. I have a feeling you'll be with us the week of June 15 or the latest June 22nd! It'll be here so soon.

So, I am so thankful that you're doing well and that your dog brother looks better. We still need to keep praying for our Keiser boy and hopefully he'll be home tomorrow.

Ok, Sweet Girl, keep on squirming and keep on growing! We love you....

#46 - From Keiser (your dog brother)

46 Days to go...

Hi, Baby Sister who isn't furry...

I am sick today. I've felt sick for the past couple of days. I started to throw up yesterday when our Mommy took me and your dog sister, Daisy on our morning walk.

Yuck. I hate throwing up. It makes my body all contorted and I make strange sounds.

I took treats and drank water yesterday and even took some food our Mommy gave me. But, yuck, I felt bad again and threw up once more.

You know what - Mommy didn't even get mad. She just cleaned it up, told me that it was ok that I was sick, gave me a good belly rub and told me to lay down.

Last night, she was so paranoid that it could be my special dog food that was making me sick, she made me chicken breast and shredded it for my dinner. Now, I'm a lucky dog.

I felt ok but really tired. Daddy got home and I wanted to play with ball - but I just didn't feel good.

I slept ok but was startled when Mommy woke me up around 3:30 AM.

She asked "Do you feel ok Buddy? I thought I heard you crying?"

I think I was dreaming about chasing my ball but she thought I was upset or throwing up - so she got up, made sure I was ok, and went back to sleep.

This morning I was excited to eat and ate all my food. But, when I went outside, I had to throw up again. Yuck. So you and Mommy are taking me to the dog doctor this afternoon.

I just had to write to you, Non-fur baby sister, to tell you that sometimes we'll get sick. Daisy has really bad allergies and for some reason I always have stomach problems. But, Mommy and Daddy take care of us. They'll do whatever it takes to make sure we feel better. You're pretty special already. Mommy talks to you and asks if you're doing ok all the time. It's kind of weird since she talks to her belly and all of a sudden I see you kick her.

So, I know you'll be joining our family soon....and I'm ok with that.

Mommy and Daddy are almost done with your room. You have a ton of clothes (haha - they're going to make you wear clothes - Mommy puts clothes on me and Daisy when Daddy's not home and I hate it!). I just wanted to tell you that you're already loved by our Mommy and Daddy and me (Daisy can be a B* - but then again - she IS a female dog).

If you get sick, don't worry - they'll take care of you just like they take care of me.

#47 - from Daddy

47 Days to go...

Morning little one, as your mom did yesterday we all have our own quirks and it will be interesting which ones if any you get from us. So here are a few quirky things about me:

- I tend to fidget, if there is a pen nearby I’m twirling it in my hands. My feet are usually tapping a beat, often to double bass drum beats!

-I hate Styrofoam, I will do all I can to avoid drinking out of a Styrofoam cup or any plastic cup for that matter. Last night we put together a bookcase for your room. Opening the box all the pieces were held together by Styrofoam and I wanted to yell taking all the parts out.

-I will only write with blue pens unless I don’t have a choice of color.

-I have to sleep with a sheet covering me, even in the 100 degree summers. I can’t fall asleep without one.

- I’m not the cleanliest person but I can’t stand clutter. I hate seeing a pile of papers on a table, shoes not in a closet, laundry baskets in the corner…

-Usually I’m pretty calm, except when I’m driving… I’ll admit I’ve gotten a lot better recently but I hate people driving slow in front of me, or people walking slow in front of me. I’m never really in a hurry but I can’t stand it!

-I don’t like stopping in the middle of a chapter when I’m reading, I will sit in the car until a song is over, or The Ticket goes to commercial and I will almost never stop a movie, tv show until it’s over..

- I get angry at inanimate objects if they don't do their job. If I'm putting something together and a part doesn't fit - I yell at it. Everything has a job - and I think objects should just DO what they were made to do!

I'm sure there's more but can't think of any right now, we will see you soon!

#48

48 days to go....

Morning, Little One!

Since you're going to be half me and half Daddy - I often think about which traits you're going to get from both of. I have some "quirks" that I think are completely normal but probably not so normal to the rest of the world.

Quirky is cool - or so I think. Here are some of the things you may get from me:

1. The need to smell everything. Like really smell things - good and bad. And then state what the things smells like. For example - in my old Pathfinder - the seat belts smelled like California.

2. When I put things up, I count. I count to ten and when I get to ten I start over until everything is put up.

3. I am a neat freak except about my shoes. My shoes are scattered all over the house (Daddy hates this). And my car could be declared a disaster area.

4. I make up songs about everything and sing them to the dogs. And it's not unusual that the songs are normally about the dogs.

5. When I read a book, I don't mind stopping mid paragraph or mid sentence and putting it down. I don't need the end of the chapter to stop where I'm at.

6. I have a routine in the morning that I hate to deviate from (except on the weekends when Daddy is around). Wake up, get a glass of water, make my coffee, while the coffee is being made I empty out the dishwasher, quiet time - writing in my journal and reading the Bible, make breakfast, eat breakfast and surf the net, clean up my breakfast dishes, make the bed. And before I do each one - I tell Keiser (your dog brother) what I'm doing next.

7. Public restrooms gross me out and I will hold "it" til I get home (I've had to work through this one since you like to rest on my bladder).

8. I like to drink out of straws and use plastic utensils. I think silverware makes my food taste like metal.

9. I like lists. Especially "to do" lists. I like to make them and check each one off. If I do something that's not on the list, I'll add it to the list and mark it off. But, I often lose my lists or forget them and have to scribble a new grocery or "to do" list in the car before I run errands.

10. I have glasses about 3/4 or 1/2 full of water all over the house (like in "Signs"). And it's not unusual to have 2 or 3 glasses on the night stand or end table.

Just a few fun things about your, Momma. I know - I'm a crazy lady but that's ok. I know you'll love me just as much as I love you - no matter what!

Keep growing, Sweet Girl!

#49

49 days (7 weeks) to go...

Hi, Little One!

Today is Mother's Day.

I know I call myself your Mommy - and I am. But I really wanted to make sure that today wasn't a big deal for me. I am so thankful for the calls, emails and cards I got for being a Mommy-to-Be but it kind of feels like cheating to me to celebrate Mother's Day.

I am your Mommy - I take care of you, feed you, make sure you're safe, make sacrifices for you - already - and you're not even here. But, I know how I become is going to change when you get here and I wanted to save our first Mother's Day for next year when you're actually with us.

Daddy wanted to get me something - but I was pretty adamant about not making today a big day for me. I have my Mom (your Nana), my sisters, and so many friends who are Mommies that I want to celebrate. But, I celebrate the fact that I have friends who are also pregnant with their Little Ones - and to me - they are already Momma's.

But, today is special because I realized that you are responsible for giving me this new responsibility in life. You are going to make me a mother. That's pretty neat :-)

I love that we are going to share that special bond soon - that I share with my Mom. My Mom is pretty amazing. She has sacrificed so much for our family, worked hard to become the great physician she is, and is now not only my Mom but my friend.

I love how our relationship has changed through the years and how she gets to experience being a grandmother to you. I love that her example, her mistakes, her accomplishments have made me the person I am today and the mold for motherhood that I want to follow.

So, Sweet Girl - let's celebrate Mother's Day when you get here - because that's the day that I'll really and truly feel and be your Mommy.

For now...keep growing!

#50

50 Days to go....

Holy countdown, Batman! Only 50 days left!!

Last night, much to Daddy's dismay, we watched the "Family Man" with Nicholas Cage and Tea Leoni.
So. GOOD.

For the first time in a very long time, Daddy and I are settled....well for now.

I think this is the first time since we've been married that we're actually going to be in the same place for a while.

School is on hold....well....not sure for how long.

It's a strange and great feeling all wrapped into one present from God.

I've always been so driven. I've always wanted to be the woman with the career, the family, the life, the money...with it all.

Then, Daddy and I found out that we were having you. It turned my world upside down. I had to face the reality that I'm not as multi-tasking as I would like to think I am. I'm not built to have "it all." I like to do things well and do them 100%....and I knew that something would have to give - my career, my marriage, you...

I know women do it everyday - they have the career, raise the family, have the marriage, make the money. I applaud them. But, I'm no longer envious of them.

The past few weeks have been so humbling to me. I had to let go of so much of the things that were - are - important to me. When your health depended on my decisions - I had to slow down, relax, stop stressing, stop worrying. All of a sudden - I truly realized - it wasn't about me. I had to take a hit to my pride and admit that I may not be able to do it all. I had to be ok with the reality that I may have to put some of my dreams aside to make sure that you and our little three person, two dog family was going to make it.

I had to re-play the conversations Daddy and I would have as he would plead to me to slow down for you and for me.

I had to stop thinking "but what about me???"

Because now, it's not just about me. It's about you, your health, a promise I made to my husband, a covenant I made with God when I said my vows - to put our marriage above all else...and the blessing of a child that comes with the powerful union of marriage.

So, I had to stop being selfish and try to find the self-less in me...

I was in tears again - I know Little One....surprise, surprise ;-) as we watched "The Family Man."

Because I think I've been given glimpses of both worlds I could have - and now - after a lot of soul searching - I can honestly say I am happy and content with saying to our family of three...

"I choose us."

Keep growing, Sweet Girl...we love you so much!

#51

51 Days to go....

Morning, Little One!

Your room is coming together nicely. Daddy and I worked on your room and put together your crib last night. We had some moments of frustration but we did it!

We're not exactly the best at putting things together but we did it for you.

Now that you're crib is put together, we have to put together the book case and figure out what else needs to be bought.

Your Tatay and Nana bought you a very comfy glider and ottoman. We'll sit in that chair when I feed you, rock you, and read books together.

There are lots of little "accents" we need to put up.

Your bedding needs to be washed. All the gifts from your baby shower need to be put up. The closet needs to be organized.

I still have to pack mine, yours and Daddy's overnight bags for the hospital. I know there's still about 6-7 weeks til you could come - but you never know - you may decide that you want to come sooner.

I keep on putting things off thinking "Oh - we have tons of time." But really, we don't!

YIKES!

Ok - Sweet Girl - you're doing a great job. Keep on growing and stay healthy and strong. I'll do my part at Mommy and take care of everything else!

Love you, Baby Girl!

#52

52 Days to go...

Morning, Little One!

I want to tell you - it's going to be ok.

There is a time when all is where it should be.

There isn't a thing you can do but just accept it.

A lot of it has to do with the fact that I'm having you - but I think it's worth it.

It'll be alright. Just try your best to not be afraid.

Listen, Sweet Girl - they are how they are because they have to be that way.

Yours won't be that way...until you get older, decide to have a baby, and then....
you're ::ahem:: breastesses will look like National Geographic Cover Girls.

Who's to blame?

Well - gravity and age have a huge part in it. I guess you can stop time by going under the knife but really - I don't think it's worth it.

They make milk for you - I know weird - like udders on a cow. But, they're full of all that you'll need for the first few months of life.

Don't be afraid of them, though, when you meet them face to face. I try to put myself in your little booties - and even I get a little phaclempt but I know this is what's best for you.

It's a natural and beautiful thing - or so all the books say.

And when it's all over - we'll make a trip to Vicky's Secret (who am I kidding - Target Unmentionables section) and enlist the help of under wire and padding to get them looking right.

I know - this is probably the most serious subject we've discussed. But, woman to woman - it needs to be talked about.

For now, Little One, just keep on growing! You have YEARS to worry about silly things like this!
Love you!

#53

53 Days to go...

Morning, Little One!

Last night Daddy was about 30 minutes late coming home from work. He works about 30 minutes from home and there's always a chance of traffic but he leaves early enough from work to miss most of it.

But yesterday, he hit some traffic and was running late.

What did I do?

Scenario 1 - Think to myself that "Oh - he probably hit traffic." And go on with my day.

Scenario 2 - Think to myself "He probably got into a wreck and now I can't get a hold of him because he's hurt."

If you guessed scenario 2, Sweet Girl, you are right.

Why do I do this? Why do I think the absolute, worse case scenario ever?

He walked in the door, said he hit some traffic, gave me a kiss hello, said hi to you and the pups...and I burst into tears.

I can't blame the pregnancy hormones because I've done this for as long as I can remember. I don't know if it's in my nature to be pessimistic like this - but I know that I can't do this when you get here.

Now that you're still an inside baby - even though I can't control how you're growing - I at least can feel you move and hear your heart beat and know you're safe inside my belly.

When you become an outside baby - that's when the uber worrying starts. Daddy says it's classic me. He has heard me tell friends that we can do all we can to protect you from harm but ultimately - you will get sick, you will get hurt, and I've only been blessed to have you for as long as God intends. It doesn't make me feel better - but I think I say it over and over again to convince myself that I am ok with NOT being able to shield you from all of life's problems.

I didn't know I could love you so much without you even being "here." I just have to continue to pray for you, pray for Daddy and I to be good parents and pray that God gives me peace rather than the anxiety that I have over things I cannot control.

For now, Little One, just keep on growing! We love you!

#54

54 Days to go...

Hi Little One!

You are dancing around and wiggling like the rock star you are! I love it!

You know what I can't wait for?

Is to dress you.

I know - so silly. But, little girls are fun. There is sooo much that goes to an outfit - not just the actual clothes.

We have hair bows, little hats/bonnets, cute shoes....ooohh how fun!

You already have 10 hair bows. I'm making you a Texas Tech hair bow to wear, a Mavs, Dallas Cowboy, and Arsenal bows.

You'll have a bow in on your head the moment you pop out.

I want to dress you up and be as girly as me because you may not have my girly side when you get bigger. You may be rock and roll like your Daddy, a tomboy who loves nothing more than to be by your Tatay, Abuelo, or Daddy, or just really not interested in hair bows and accessories (::wiping tears away::).

But know this, you'll be loved no matter what. So for now, just humor me and let me dress you up. And don't laugh if I try to find something similar to what you're wearing because I want us to look alike...

Just keep on growing, Sweet Girl!

#55

55 Days to go....

Morning, Little One!

What a fun time we had this weekend! Did you know how loved you are? You really are and Daddy and I are so blessed to have such great friends who love us.

They threw a party - just for you! All the gifts were for you, Sweet Girl...you haven't even joined us and our friends are celebrating YOU! What great friends we have!

Stacy, Mel, Silvana, Heather, Allie and Andrea F. got together and had a baby shower for us. It was a couple's shower - since all of their husbands are Daddy's best friends. I can't tell you how much it meant to me to celebrate YOU with Daddy.

Me and Daddy - I got to make you with HIM! Hubba, hubba...

That day - we kind of had a moment where we looked at each other and said "I can't believe this baby shower is for us!" We've celebrated the kiddos in all of our friends lives and it's still surreal that we're having a baby!

There was an Asian theme - since of course - I'm Filipino...but we had some good ole' American food too to celebrate Daddy - East meets West!!! So great! Thanks to all of you who came and celebrated Baby H. with us!

We love you so much and know that you are getting ready to join a group of friends who love you already! Keep growing, Sweet Girl!

Pretty Asian Lanterns...and Miller :-)
Cupcakes and fortune cookies - they had "baby" fortunes in them!

Party favors

How great is our family - Tita Chonnie, Tatay and Nana

Me and your Tita (Abuela and Abuelo were there too!)

Opening gifts

Girl pic - where ya at Andrea and Heather??????
Boy pic...they're special...they are not at a bar but in the garage made by Joe to look like a bar...nice

#56

56 Days to go...

Hi, Little One!

What a great weekend we had!

But, the best part of this weekend was an awesome surprise.

Daddy and I were at church this morning and our friends Andrea and Scott sat with us. We have been praying for Scott for a while to get baptized. Although he had accepted Christ into his life, he had not made it public by getting baptized.

I understood where he was coming from. When Daddy first accepted Christ, the whole baptism thing was still a weird concept. For me, I was baptized as an infant in the Catholic church and did not think I needed to do it again. But, after a lot of thought and prayer Daddy and I both realized that in order to take the next step in our Christian walk - we both needed to let it be known that we were proud warriors for Jesus. So in 2004, we were baptized and our lives have been changed since.

So today - our pastor explained yet again what baptism was. And he asked the congregation if anyone was so bold to make their beliefs public - to show the world by getting baptized. The moment he asked the church, I began praying for Scott. When he didn't get up at first - I stopped praying for Scott and started praying for the Holy Spirit to open up his heart.

Then, Pastor Ed said he felt that some people were holding back and to recognize that the battle within the person was truly the Devil whispering in his/her ear to not make it known that he/she was a follower for Christ. After that prayer....

He did it...Scott got up - walked in front of the congregation - and made the choice to show the world he was ready to take the next step in his Christian walk.

Andrea and I were in tears! What a bold move he made for the Lord! What an awesome feeling to witness God working - at that very moment - in the hearts of not just Scott - but the other two people who decided to get baptized!

Craig, Andrea and I watched Scott get baptized and were so proud. I am so proud of him and so proud of Andrea for her continuous prayers for him. They are set to get married May 30. I know for a fact that he will be able to lead their house in the way God intended marriage to be!

So don't ever let anyone tell you, Sweet Girl, that there is no God. Don't ever let anyone tell you that our God is not a living God - because He is very much alive. Don't ever let anyone tell you that it's too late to be a Christ follower or that you're not good enough. Don't let anyone ever tell you that prayers are a waste of time.

I cannot wait to share with you the wonderful story of our Savior and to see how God will work miracles in your life. For now Baby Girl - keep on growing!

#57

57 Days to go...

Hi, Little One!

I just want to thank God again for you. No matter how scared I am of motherhood, I know that you are an amazing miracle.

I was reading through my friends blogs when I came across Adeline's. I found out that last week was National Infertility Week and I just want to take the time to think of all the women who desperately want a child of their own.



I have amazing friends and family who have suffered from infertility issues and miscarriages but have been blessed with a child.

Did you know that Adeline's baby Luke really and truly is a miracle?? She suffered through 3 miscarriages before that sweet baby was brought into this world.

Did you know that Mel tried for the longest time before she was blessed with Jonah?

Did you know that Ashley's little miracle took much longer to get here than she ever expected?

Did you know that even your sweet cousins took awhile to get here and weren't immediately given by God to my sisters to care for?

I think about how shocked but excited Daddy and I were to find out you were going to be joining our family that I often take for granted how blessed we are to be pregnant with you.

Shauna told me something powerful when I first told her that I was pregnant with you. She said

"God has the power to open and to close the womb."

Wow - God chose me. I don't know why but He did. He chose me to be your Mommy.

I am so thankful and feel so blessed.

Keep on growing Little One - you are our sweet, little miracle!!

#58

58 Days to go....

Morning, Little One!

Today is May 1. Daddy and I can't believe that it's already May. The past few months have flown by. I feel like I say that all the time - but really - it amazes me how quickly time passes.

Yesterday, I went to your Aunt Shauna's house. She gave me some lessons on blog stuff and Photoshop.

It was good to see her since we hardly see one another these days. She has three kiddos - all under the age of 7 (well - soon 8 since Mackenzie's bday is tomorrow!). As I watched her tend to her youngest - Macy - who's 3 - I was shocked at how laid back she was.

Shauna attributes it to the fact that Macy is her 3rd child. With Mackenzie, she was not as laid back.

Then we had a long talk about her son Chase and school stuff.

We also talked about Mackenzie's birthday gift wish - a cell phone! She's going to be 8...the only person she has to call is her parents but since all of her friends have one...well....you know how it is.

A parent's job is never done. Every year brings on new challenges and it just gets more complicated. I'm pretty sure that at every stage you'll give me something to worry about and difficulties.

But, I'm also pretty sure you'll give us joy unlike anything Daddy and I have ever experienced.

For now, you just need to keep growing, Sweet Girl! We love you!