#52

52 Days to go...

Morning, Little One!

I want to tell you - it's going to be ok.

There is a time when all is where it should be.

There isn't a thing you can do but just accept it.

A lot of it has to do with the fact that I'm having you - but I think it's worth it.

It'll be alright. Just try your best to not be afraid.

Listen, Sweet Girl - they are how they are because they have to be that way.

Yours won't be that way...until you get older, decide to have a baby, and then....
you're ::ahem:: breastesses will look like National Geographic Cover Girls.

Who's to blame?

Well - gravity and age have a huge part in it. I guess you can stop time by going under the knife but really - I don't think it's worth it.

They make milk for you - I know weird - like udders on a cow. But, they're full of all that you'll need for the first few months of life.

Don't be afraid of them, though, when you meet them face to face. I try to put myself in your little booties - and even I get a little phaclempt but I know this is what's best for you.

It's a natural and beautiful thing - or so all the books say.

And when it's all over - we'll make a trip to Vicky's Secret (who am I kidding - Target Unmentionables section) and enlist the help of under wire and padding to get them looking right.

I know - this is probably the most serious subject we've discussed. But, woman to woman - it needs to be talked about.

For now, Little One, just keep on growing! You have YEARS to worry about silly things like this!
Love you!

#53

53 Days to go...

Morning, Little One!

Last night Daddy was about 30 minutes late coming home from work. He works about 30 minutes from home and there's always a chance of traffic but he leaves early enough from work to miss most of it.

But yesterday, he hit some traffic and was running late.

What did I do?

Scenario 1 - Think to myself that "Oh - he probably hit traffic." And go on with my day.

Scenario 2 - Think to myself "He probably got into a wreck and now I can't get a hold of him because he's hurt."

If you guessed scenario 2, Sweet Girl, you are right.

Why do I do this? Why do I think the absolute, worse case scenario ever?

He walked in the door, said he hit some traffic, gave me a kiss hello, said hi to you and the pups...and I burst into tears.

I can't blame the pregnancy hormones because I've done this for as long as I can remember. I don't know if it's in my nature to be pessimistic like this - but I know that I can't do this when you get here.

Now that you're still an inside baby - even though I can't control how you're growing - I at least can feel you move and hear your heart beat and know you're safe inside my belly.

When you become an outside baby - that's when the uber worrying starts. Daddy says it's classic me. He has heard me tell friends that we can do all we can to protect you from harm but ultimately - you will get sick, you will get hurt, and I've only been blessed to have you for as long as God intends. It doesn't make me feel better - but I think I say it over and over again to convince myself that I am ok with NOT being able to shield you from all of life's problems.

I didn't know I could love you so much without you even being "here." I just have to continue to pray for you, pray for Daddy and I to be good parents and pray that God gives me peace rather than the anxiety that I have over things I cannot control.

For now, Little One, just keep on growing! We love you!

#54

54 Days to go...

Hi Little One!

You are dancing around and wiggling like the rock star you are! I love it!

You know what I can't wait for?

Is to dress you.

I know - so silly. But, little girls are fun. There is sooo much that goes to an outfit - not just the actual clothes.

We have hair bows, little hats/bonnets, cute shoes....ooohh how fun!

You already have 10 hair bows. I'm making you a Texas Tech hair bow to wear, a Mavs, Dallas Cowboy, and Arsenal bows.

You'll have a bow in on your head the moment you pop out.

I want to dress you up and be as girly as me because you may not have my girly side when you get bigger. You may be rock and roll like your Daddy, a tomboy who loves nothing more than to be by your Tatay, Abuelo, or Daddy, or just really not interested in hair bows and accessories (::wiping tears away::).

But know this, you'll be loved no matter what. So for now, just humor me and let me dress you up. And don't laugh if I try to find something similar to what you're wearing because I want us to look alike...

Just keep on growing, Sweet Girl!

#55

55 Days to go....

Morning, Little One!

What a fun time we had this weekend! Did you know how loved you are? You really are and Daddy and I are so blessed to have such great friends who love us.

They threw a party - just for you! All the gifts were for you, Sweet Girl...you haven't even joined us and our friends are celebrating YOU! What great friends we have!

Stacy, Mel, Silvana, Heather, Allie and Andrea F. got together and had a baby shower for us. It was a couple's shower - since all of their husbands are Daddy's best friends. I can't tell you how much it meant to me to celebrate YOU with Daddy.

Me and Daddy - I got to make you with HIM! Hubba, hubba...

That day - we kind of had a moment where we looked at each other and said "I can't believe this baby shower is for us!" We've celebrated the kiddos in all of our friends lives and it's still surreal that we're having a baby!

There was an Asian theme - since of course - I'm Filipino...but we had some good ole' American food too to celebrate Daddy - East meets West!!! So great! Thanks to all of you who came and celebrated Baby H. with us!

We love you so much and know that you are getting ready to join a group of friends who love you already! Keep growing, Sweet Girl!

Pretty Asian Lanterns...and Miller :-)
Cupcakes and fortune cookies - they had "baby" fortunes in them!

Party favors

How great is our family - Tita Chonnie, Tatay and Nana

Me and your Tita (Abuela and Abuelo were there too!)

Opening gifts

Girl pic - where ya at Andrea and Heather??????
Boy pic...they're special...they are not at a bar but in the garage made by Joe to look like a bar...nice

#56

56 Days to go...

Hi, Little One!

What a great weekend we had!

But, the best part of this weekend was an awesome surprise.

Daddy and I were at church this morning and our friends Andrea and Scott sat with us. We have been praying for Scott for a while to get baptized. Although he had accepted Christ into his life, he had not made it public by getting baptized.

I understood where he was coming from. When Daddy first accepted Christ, the whole baptism thing was still a weird concept. For me, I was baptized as an infant in the Catholic church and did not think I needed to do it again. But, after a lot of thought and prayer Daddy and I both realized that in order to take the next step in our Christian walk - we both needed to let it be known that we were proud warriors for Jesus. So in 2004, we were baptized and our lives have been changed since.

So today - our pastor explained yet again what baptism was. And he asked the congregation if anyone was so bold to make their beliefs public - to show the world by getting baptized. The moment he asked the church, I began praying for Scott. When he didn't get up at first - I stopped praying for Scott and started praying for the Holy Spirit to open up his heart.

Then, Pastor Ed said he felt that some people were holding back and to recognize that the battle within the person was truly the Devil whispering in his/her ear to not make it known that he/she was a follower for Christ. After that prayer....

He did it...Scott got up - walked in front of the congregation - and made the choice to show the world he was ready to take the next step in his Christian walk.

Andrea and I were in tears! What a bold move he made for the Lord! What an awesome feeling to witness God working - at that very moment - in the hearts of not just Scott - but the other two people who decided to get baptized!

Craig, Andrea and I watched Scott get baptized and were so proud. I am so proud of him and so proud of Andrea for her continuous prayers for him. They are set to get married May 30. I know for a fact that he will be able to lead their house in the way God intended marriage to be!

So don't ever let anyone tell you, Sweet Girl, that there is no God. Don't ever let anyone tell you that our God is not a living God - because He is very much alive. Don't ever let anyone tell you that it's too late to be a Christ follower or that you're not good enough. Don't let anyone ever tell you that prayers are a waste of time.

I cannot wait to share with you the wonderful story of our Savior and to see how God will work miracles in your life. For now Baby Girl - keep on growing!

#57

57 Days to go...

Hi, Little One!

I just want to thank God again for you. No matter how scared I am of motherhood, I know that you are an amazing miracle.

I was reading through my friends blogs when I came across Adeline's. I found out that last week was National Infertility Week and I just want to take the time to think of all the women who desperately want a child of their own.



I have amazing friends and family who have suffered from infertility issues and miscarriages but have been blessed with a child.

Did you know that Adeline's baby Luke really and truly is a miracle?? She suffered through 3 miscarriages before that sweet baby was brought into this world.

Did you know that Mel tried for the longest time before she was blessed with Jonah?

Did you know that Ashley's little miracle took much longer to get here than she ever expected?

Did you know that even your sweet cousins took awhile to get here and weren't immediately given by God to my sisters to care for?

I think about how shocked but excited Daddy and I were to find out you were going to be joining our family that I often take for granted how blessed we are to be pregnant with you.

Shauna told me something powerful when I first told her that I was pregnant with you. She said

"God has the power to open and to close the womb."

Wow - God chose me. I don't know why but He did. He chose me to be your Mommy.

I am so thankful and feel so blessed.

Keep on growing Little One - you are our sweet, little miracle!!

#58

58 Days to go....

Morning, Little One!

Today is May 1. Daddy and I can't believe that it's already May. The past few months have flown by. I feel like I say that all the time - but really - it amazes me how quickly time passes.

Yesterday, I went to your Aunt Shauna's house. She gave me some lessons on blog stuff and Photoshop.

It was good to see her since we hardly see one another these days. She has three kiddos - all under the age of 7 (well - soon 8 since Mackenzie's bday is tomorrow!). As I watched her tend to her youngest - Macy - who's 3 - I was shocked at how laid back she was.

Shauna attributes it to the fact that Macy is her 3rd child. With Mackenzie, she was not as laid back.

Then we had a long talk about her son Chase and school stuff.

We also talked about Mackenzie's birthday gift wish - a cell phone! She's going to be 8...the only person she has to call is her parents but since all of her friends have one...well....you know how it is.

A parent's job is never done. Every year brings on new challenges and it just gets more complicated. I'm pretty sure that at every stage you'll give me something to worry about and difficulties.

But, I'm also pretty sure you'll give us joy unlike anything Daddy and I have ever experienced.

For now, you just need to keep growing, Sweet Girl! We love you!